wow what is going on

I am taking a left turn here. I initially thought I would write the story of my son's adoption. How ever in the last month I have found my self at a cross road. Professionally and personally.

I will continue my initial story but today feel the need to vent on being invisible.

I feel as though I am slowly disappearing. Or is it that I am going through a reinvention of sorts and this particular incarnation is dissolving.

I am leaving the place that I have worked at for almost 7 years and venturing to work from home (YIKES).

I am still working through the past in order to get a line on the future but really needing to be rooted in the present.

The need to feel the solid roots of my friendships has left me feeling a little paranoid and vulnerable. (Why does no one call?) I know that in my drive and prior work schedule I was not a very good friend of family member. Rarely did (do ) I call anyone to chat. I have let some of these roots wither. And now I am not sure what my expectation could / should be.

I have moments of solidly believing that I am moving towards something. These are balanced by the fear of moving away from................

All I really know is that this is going to be an interesting ride.